Father and Son....

lately I've been thinking and I came across this subject about fathers. I was talking to one of my best friends and he was like he's going fishing with his dad. I knew his family for so long so hearing that never bothered me but at that time I was frustrated. I never really set down and thought about how much that really affected me, but it did.

My mother I love her so much and she did a great job with me. but I was thinking about my life and how she used to tell me to do certain things in the house and if they didn't get done she would tell me " u suppose to be the man of the house". It took me a long time to think on that, I really did and i came up with, how do you really be a man? I mean I been hearing it my whole life over and over, but I never really knew what it meant to be a man. my mother used to tell that but I don't think she thought about what she said. she was telling me to be something I was never taught to be.At the same time I was expected to already know how to do it.That was really hard on my to try and find out how to be a man own my own just so I can do what moms said.

That's why I feel like a lot more men need to step up to the plate and take care of there kids. It affects them in so many ways to the point where there don't ever realize. But when I thought about it even more I figured out that the reason why they weren't there is because their fathers were never there to show them how a mans suppose to be. more and more young youth are growing up without a male figure in there lives and we love the mothers but it's just some things that momma can't teach you. That's one reason why I feel like young men in today's society are taking the turn for the worst and momma just can't understand whats goin on, not knowing that all men go threw it she makes you feel like your nasty or dumb.

Everything that our mother teaches us just doesn't work like that when we get older and ready to embark on life. lets say your 14 and your friends wanna go out and play some ball. as mothers always do they let you go out and when you get to the court and see the guys playing, you go up to them and said " excuse me but whenever you are done I would love to play with you guys". They turn look at each other and laugh. knowing their laughing at you, your not mad because of the laugh, your mad because your confused at what momma taught you is not working with the boys.You can't blame mother because shes nowhere near a man, but it would of been nice to have so one who can show you through life and help you avoid a few bumps and bruises. That's why I feel we need more fathers to man up to there jobs and teach these young guys how to be someone there mom has been telling them to be there whole life and that is a man.Lets keep the mothers and daughters but more fathers and sons.

Blacks and Media...

I was in class today and i was thinking about how the world views African Americans. Alot of the media makes us look like monsters, not showing the black entrepreneurs in the world. It's like theres not even any and we are just a much of dirty low-lifes that will never get anywhere. It's sad because they try to blame the victim when they see us on tv getting arrested. After seeing us on tv your whole life either getting arrested or killing someone, you might not hate us, but you don't feel safe when we are around. the media pushed you in a corner to fear us. Then when you get older u try to say we need to change and you don't want your kids around us without even getting to know us. So now that caused a problem because now you fear us as a whole and that makes us not get along. Sometimes fear turns into a hate, so now you fear us so much to the point it truns to hate. Whats crazy is that now they try to hide the problem instead of working on it.I had a problem like this when I was in elementary school. I'm no t gonna name anyone but This kid called me a "nigger". At that time I was upset so I slapped him in the face a couple times. when I went to the main office they made me set in there all day but his mother came and took him home. I'm not bitter about it, this is just a prime example of how Americas treat us. All he had to do was get an understanding, but his parnets and media pumped him with fear so much that he never even give me a chance. I think it's time for a change. the media needs to stop blasting us and blast the corporate killers who put those things on the media. We just want a chance in life just like everyone else. So the next time you see a American American, don't be so quick to move away from us. Get to know em, you never know you might see the other side of African Americans that they media fails to show you.

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That's Crazy...

Today I was talking to my mom as always and she told me a story. She said she was at wal-mart and there was a lil white girl looking at this Dora the explorer doll. When her mom seen that she was looking at it she told her daughter quote"We don't except those kinds of toys in our house". That was weird to me because I couldn't understand why you would tell your child she can't have it. It's something she can play with and learn at the same time,so I couldn't find no other reason but one. It can't be that she doesn't let her daughter play with toys because she's a lil girl and that's what they use to learn. I might of understood if she told her something like "You don't need that right now sweetie"but tellin her that we don't except that kind of toy leaves me with a? I feel like she racist but I'm asking you guys how you feel about it because I can't see no other way. If u can give me three reasons why you wouldn't let your daughter play with Dora without it being racist then I would understand but there is no reason for it. thats sad she raising her child up like that and she goes to school and all her friends are talking about what they learned in spanish and your child is lookin dumb because you've put a restriction on her education. All she can do is come home and ask why i can't get one when all my friends tellin me how it is.she even told u what they learned from the Dora doll and you would have to explain why she can't get it.This world is so messed up to where they don't even want colored dolls in there houses because they think it's a bad influence. That's why i believe racism will never die because of parents like her.

Just Be Yourself...

I've been looking around school and in my neighborhood and I seen alot of so called "thugs" and was wondering, What makes them wanna be a thug? I came to the conclusion that no one has a tru definition of a "thug" because media made it. this might take a while but I'm gonna explain it as short as possible.

first, the only reason they were even trying to do it is because of all the ladies they think thier gonna get. When you watch TV you see someone like lil Wayne on bet talking about how he has so many "hoes", that started it all because the girls started to except that look as what they were looking for, which made them put a lower price on their on value by doing that. in the process of doing that all the good guys started to see the same thing on TV. the saw how many girls he got so from that point on they started to view woman as a object not a person. then when they started to talk to other girls they noticed how girls really loved that look and the only reason they were into it because the other girls started to see how their friends liked that "thug" look, so they thought if that's whats in now then I'm with it. Now since the guys know what the girls want to get who they want. They learned how to play the game and score at the same time. Now you see guys with there pants at half mass walking around holding them up because they want what he has on TV knowing that chance is little.

Next, another reason is that they want the money because what they see makes it seem like if you get money the all your problems will be solved. with songs like "I Get Money" and "Got Money" you can tell that theres only one thing on their mind. So guys listen to lyrics like "I got eight chains, I wear so much ice they yell skate Wayne", and it replayed in their head to the point wear they forgot about the real reason they went to school, now their just going for a fashion show. It effected the ladies to because when they seen it, that's what they started to expect it out of the guys they were with. So this made it even harder for the guys because now they have to do even more to get the girl. In the middle of all this they have to remember not to be their selves and that's bad. That's why you have high school girls walking around saying " if he ain't got bank, they he can't have this". Not even knowing that guys don't want to have a long relationship with a girl they can pay for. Now girls are still looking for love but guys are looking for a nut and that causes alot of confusion.

Last, the main reason behind all of it is beause they wanna fit in with the "crew". It used to be ok for guys to do certain things in public, but now they are very limited. Most of them thugs grew up with a single mother and she was gone most of the time, so to fill that void they looked to the streetz. when moms wasn't home his homies was always on time so when mom got home they didn't really understand each other because he charished the relationship with his boys mor than his mother. young and still yerning for that male role model they look on TV to find him. It's come accustomed to them so much that they try to do what they see in real life. he smokes weed, pop pills and drinks liquior regularly becaeuse he feels like thats what he has to do to survive in this world. they start to lose that happiness they used to have when they were just being them selves and they walk around like "f the world and let em die". You can't even speak to them without them getting smart or trying to make you look less of a man not knowing that they have the meaning of man all wrong. they talk about "gunplay" and how many guns they have to boost their hood status, so thier homies won't find any weakness in them. they get a few tatoos and a dreads, so now thier "G's and Gangsta's and well respected because thier potraying an image thats not even real itself. So you tell me what would you choose, be someone else and get the world or be yourself and be free.

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Today I was listening to a few Music producers on "Youtbe" and they really inspired me. I haven't really been making any beats lately because of school and church I haven't had time to, but I really need to make time. I think before I go to work today I'll work on a lil somethin. I just got tired of all the music thats being played today. People used to make music because they love to, but now it's all about the money and the love for music is fading. I miss those days where I could listen to a whole cd with hearing how much money someone makes or how many girls they can get and jewlery. can we please have someone that talks about real life things and leave all that tangible stuff out of there songs. Now I'm a hardcore christians so if theres no good message behind the song, I see no reason to listen to. It's just bad to listen to the radio and hear how there promoting drugs, violence, sex and money. that why alot of these young kids know to much for thier age. I'm just prayin for a change because the world has the worng definition of "real music". I bet they'll pick lil wayne over John Mayer or solijah boy over Crossmovement. it seems to me that meanings are thrown away and nonsense gets all the play.